Eurovision Song Contest - A soldier for his country

I still don't know who I am
The only thing I know is that my name is Sam
And I wonder where I lived
I remember a soldier and he's giving me a gift

And I'm bleeding
I lay down in a hole all alone, without a meaning
And I suffer
Yet I'm still alive and I have nothing more to offer

Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I release myself
Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I release myself Shooting people, that's my duty
I almost killed myself completely in fury
And I'm not made for this
The war is almost over, there's a light in the darkness

I feel guilty
My family is standing, when it's over, I've been lonely
I shoot a bullet through my head
My pain will be over, and I'll be dead

Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I release myself
Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I release myself

Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I shoot myself
Oh, I'm not scared, I am ready
I shoot myself