Mariah Carey - Breakdown

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me
But that you`re just not in love
Immediately, I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was OK
To just walk away from the one thing
That`s unyielding and sacred to me

Well, I guess I`m trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I`m going to extremes
To prove I`m fine without you
But in reality
I`m slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I`m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
`Cause I don`t want to reveal
The fact that that I`m suffering
So, I wear my disguise
`Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

So, what do you do
When somebody you`re devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven`t got a clue
Of the pain that rejection
Is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I Will Survive"
Do you lash out and say
"How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain
As they just slip away

Well, I guess I`m trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I`m going to extremes
To prove I`m fine without you
But in reality
I`m slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I`m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
`Cause I don`t want to reveal
The fact that that I`m suffering
So, I wear my disguise
`Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

Well, I guess I`m trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I`m going to extremes
To prove I`m fine without you
But in reality
I`m slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I`m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
`Cause I don`t want to reveal
The fact that that I`m suffering
So, I wear my disguise
`Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

Well, I guess I`m trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I`m going to extremes
To prove I`m fine without you
But in reality
I`m slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I`m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
`Cause I don`t want to reveal
The fact that that I`m suffering
So, I wear my disguise
`Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

Well, I guess I`m trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I`m going to extremes
To prove I`m fine without you
But in reality
I`m slowly losing my mind


Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I`m dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
`Cause I don`t want to reveal
The fact that that I`m suffering
So, I wear my disguise
`Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry