Nicki Minaj - Autobiography

May the Lord protect me when the world gets hectic
My voice projected, my life reflected.

Daddy was a crack feind.
Two in the morning had us running down the block lika a track team.
When you burned the house down and my mother was in it
How could I forget it, the pain was infinite.
She's my Queen and I ain't even Britisch
She's the only reason that I went to school and I finished.
She told me that I had talent.
Got on her knees and prayed for me when I started being violent.
She saw something in me that, till this day, I don't know if I can be that.
But I'm a die trying and when I'm done crying,
Grap the iron,
blackout like I'm retiring.
Nightmares of you killing my mother,
The reason that I sleep with my head under the covers.
And they should've thrown a book at you, 'cause I hate you so much that it burns when I look at you.

May the Lord protect me when the world gets hectic
My voice projected my life reflected. Damn, I wanna run to you.
Hold you and kiss you and tell you how I miss you.
Thought I would have a son for you
But now it's official, it's over and I can't let you go.
But I gotta let you know
All the shit I did makes me feel like I'm dying real slow.
'Cause no one understands me
They don't know what to do when I'm hurt or when I'm angry.
You was my friend, and my man, and my daddy.
You was there when that bitch tried to stab me.
Anything I ever needed knew you had me.
'Cause of you all the chicks couldn't stand me.
So why hurt you, that's the question.
It took this long for me to learn my lesson.
'Cause now all I want is peace and get drama
I finally understand the true meaning of karma.

May the Lord protect me when the world gets hectic
My voice projected my life reflected.

Please baby forgive me.
Mommy was young, mommy was to busy trying to have fun.
But now I pat myself on the back, for sending you back 'cause God knows I was better than that.
To conceive you, then leave you
The concept alone seems evil, I'm trapped in my concience.
I adhere to the nonsense, listening to people who told me I wasn't ready for you.
But how the fuck would they know what I was ready to do?
And ofcourse it wasn't your fault.
It's like I could feel you in the air, I hear you saying mommy don't cry can't you see I'm right here?
I gotta let you know what you mean to me
When I'm sleeping I see you in my dreams with me.
Wish I touch your little face or just hold your little hand.
If it's part of God's plan maybe we can meet again.

May the Lord protect me when the world gets hectic
My voice projected my life reflected.