Vanessa Carlton - This time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
A flickering of all of my mistakes
And as the light starts creeping in
I slowly feel
The day I'm missing
But I wouldn't even know where to begin

Do I push too hard?
Or fall too fast?
The moment never seems to last
Will I stop long enough to know -

That everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away
This time

Your words circle in my head
Weigh so heavy on my chest
And I'm crushed by your expectation
I only want to do some good
Too dumb to know if I could
And I just wanna feel the days I'm in

Do I go too far?
Not far enough?
Why can't I keep my big mouth shut?
And do we lead the life that we should? And everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away
This time

Did I say too much again?
I'm just a girl in a panic
If I tell you my truth
Am I getting through?
It just seems I should confess
And who am I to pretend?
This is more than I can carry

Everybody burns
And when it starts to hurt,
I cry
I hold my head up high
I know I'll be all right
This time

I feel it in my veins
I just can't walk away
This time
This time
This time
This time

It's 4 a.m. and I'm wide awake
Waiting for my thoughts to fade
And it's times like these I see your face