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I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On the salty lips and said to them
I love you--Bye (Bye)
I've carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
for 20 years look at me now.

I've got something to say
About the last twelve months I've lived
I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know

I take a pill every day
To help me deal with life

And oh my God
I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all

I've carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
for 20 years look at me now.

I've got something to say
About the family that I've lost
I hope my mother and father think that they raised a healthy boy

Who needs the help of a shrink
To even leave the house And oh my god
I've lost control
I stare at accidents in a sick attempt to feel at all

I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you should know
I'm not the same kid
I was when I was younger
I just thought you
I just thought you should know

I've carried the weight of the world on my shoulders
for 20 years look at me now.
And now, and now, it's finding it's way and making it's way to let go

I can't believe it's been a year
Since I kissed my fears
On the salty lips and said to them
I loved you

Don't ask, just swallow,
repeat, then swallow,
don't ask, just swallow down, down your throat
Don't ask, just swallow,
repeat, then swallow,
don't ask, just swallow down, down your throat

My best fried is a man
With a lab coat, and a grin
I hold my shaking hand
And he gives me medicine

I hope this makes me feel at home
But they slowly steal my soul
I tell him I still feel alone
"Don't worry someday I promise you will feel at home"

And oh my God
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh my God
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of
And oh my God
I've lost control
Of the only thing in life I had a hold of